Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Fed up

Alrighty... I'm blogging, so there must be some turmoil in my marriage.

Yes, my wife and I are not speaking; haven't been for almost 2 days now. The sad part, I don't know why!

I'll speculate:
  • She is consumed by wether or not our 5 month old son sleeps. We live in a home that is fairly noisy; the floors creak. So, if I walk up the stairs or across the floor and the floors creak, I wait for the impending "Shhhhh!!!" which is funny because her going "SSHHHH!!!" is louder than the godam floors creaking. Meanwhile, when they do creak, he doesn't even stir. So it's basically a non-fucking issue, but like I said, she is consumed.
  • The other night, she was heading out to go shopping. I was left with the task of giving our daughter a bath. The wife wanted to be sure we did it quietly... so as to not wake up the boy. I assured her we'd be fine as we began our bath. As I'm getting her into the tub, the wife is standing behind me giving me instructions on how to give my daughter a quiet fucking bath. And she instists that she is going to stand there and watch to make sure I do it right. I finally am fed up with her act and tell her to "Get the fuck out of here". She says no so I get up and assist her in leaving the bathroom. I didn't push her or get physical, I simply helped her begin moving in the right direction. Since then, we havent been speaking.


The fact is, I'm sure it isn't any one thing that led to this current cold spell. I'm sure it is a snowball effect and there were many factors that led to this.

I am just at the point where I am sick/tired of her bullshit. I'm tired of trying to figure out why she is mad THIS TIME. I'm tired of walking on eggshells only to ultimately fail (in her eyes) anyway.

I'm at the point where, if we didn't have kids, I'd seriously be considering a divorce. This is ridiculous and I'm just tired of the routine.

When we do start talking again, and she wants to have "the discussion", I don't know how I'll react. I just don't have the energy to spend debating her irrational bullshit.

I'm just fed up! 3 out of 5 days a week, I come home from work to an angry wife. On top of that, at least 2 of 4 weekends a month are ruined 1 way or another by a fight. I know being a "Stay at Home Mom" is extremely difficult. But it can NOT be normal for a person to be this angry this often. It just can't be normal!

Anyway... I am just done with it all. And the funny thing is, I'm sure if you asked her, she'd say the same thing.

I just really think she needs to chill the fuck out and take the chip off of her shoulder... but I've given up hope that that is going to happen.